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My guard is down, my twins are in bed, the older guys are at camp and it’s quiet.  I am tired!

It was September, I was snuggled up in bed and channel surfing.  I came upon the docu-series called 30 Days.  I missed the beginning of it, the episode was called “Living on an Indian Reservation” so I decided to watch anyway.

Note: If I saw the opening, I probably would of changed the channel, thankfully I didn’t.

If you had a chance (link on wordpress) to watch the episode, I was most impressed with the connections Morgan made with the community members, especially with Granny.  She reminds me so such of my Cree speaking Nanan (who does not speak a word of English).  I cried when she talked about not being able to converse with her grandchildren because they don’t speak the language.

That pissed me off because we are missing out on valuable teachings!

It’s not just about re-learning the language — it has to do with getting over the psychological barriers, too.  If anyone has any idea about the crap that was done at residential schools, you will hopefully understand.

My grandfather went and returned home refusing to speak English.

My grandmother never went because her parents hid her.

Unfortunately, my mother was taken at the age of 4 (I believe) and returned home at age 16 years old — messed up!  To this day my mother still breaks down when talking about the abuse and she is 65 years old.

I have never had a conversation with my grandmother, not once in my life and I never will! (yet we are so close)  It also reminded me of the void my mother and I carry… she has never spoken to me in Cree, ever!  It is her first language, she speaks Cree better than English!

Moving on, I did spend time doing some research on related topics.  I think and I hope I made clear references during my presentation. I also decided to show parts of the short film called Babakiueria, which I initially thought was a moku-mentary.  I saw it thirteen years ago and it had a huge impact.  I never saw anything like it, and I wanted to share it with the class.  I wish there was more time to show it all and discuss the responses to it.  I think it’s important to go there…  On Friday night I made my older boys watch it, they got a kick out of it…

Overall, I found the presentation difficult at times because talking about (personal) issues like residential school, identity, language and racism is like peeling an onion, I don’t ever seem to get to the core without breaking down.

Going to crash now,


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